Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Best Posts of 2015



The activity of filtering through my posts this year to make this list has been deeply meaningful for me.  It's a shame that I end on the notes of these deaths, but they were, after all the biggest developments of this year.

It was also the year of Thoreau, as well as putting down to paper the deeply spiritual value of silence, stillness, and a connection to nature.  I learned to use productivity to leave productivity.

And for good measure I had fun starting and failing at a lot of other little projects (those posts didn't make this cut) , but I did end up learning Dvorak typing.

Update -- December 2015

Merry Winter Solstice!.

Spirit

I am going back through my journals and creating an index so far for them.  This has also led me to see some patterns and connections which I had not noticed before.  I now believe that journals are the best catalyst I can think of for adding -- or really pulling up -- meaning in life.

A word on my journals.  I keep three paper journals, all three in the same style of cheap composition book.  One journal is at home, one is at work, and one is in my back-pack for when I travel or go on walks.  The travel journal is the most widely used, but the other two have gems of their own.

I am deliberately forcing myself to hold off on writing (or at the very least publishing) until I reach my summer vacation.  I want to incubate my ideas and, besides from these updates, only deliver the best, truest pieces of writing that I can produce.


Mind

My project for the break was porting over the historical dates I had in Memrise over to Anki.  I just like Anki much, much better.  I have dropped the game of Diplomacy and have made my morning mental wake up routine consist of doing my spaced repetition work with Anki.

Body

Still greasing the groove with modified push-ups.

On the days I am healing up from that, I still hang from my pull up bar to work on grip strength, and others I work on single leg squats -- not pistols, but single leg squats with my off leg tucked back.

Lastly, I am trying to replace the push that coffee gives me (or so I think) with 50 reps of cardio, like jumping jacks or side-to-side jumps.  I had read about it before, and am now trying it out.  In the long run I want to be off caffeine entirely.  For now, I will drink some in the mornings to avoid headaches.

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Eulogy for my uncle

I have been doing too many of these lately.

With my uncle's passing, I am now the last living Huddleston male.

Here is the eulogy:


With my uncle's passing I now have some big shoes to fill. In a world that seems obsessed with words, flash, PR, and brands, I learned from my grandfather, father, and uncle the meaning of loyalty, the gifts of service, and most of all deep roots.  I remember being well into my twenties before I realized how abnormal it has become for a family to see each other as much as mine.  You mean you don't visit you grandparents every week?

On my weekly visits to my grandparents, often Ray and his wife Connie would come by, or even be there before us. This was never planned.  Sunday is just a good visiting day.  And, for the record, my mom and dad made their visits so dang early on Sundays that I rarely ran into them.

Does this sound simple?  Fine, it is. But as the personal development guru Jim Rohn shows, if something is easy to do, it is also easy to not do.  There are hundreds of other priorities and clever reasons to not make time for your family.  That has not been the Huddleston way.  It was not uncle Bipper's way.

As a teacher it's a pity that one lesson I cannot truly teach my students is how to get matters of loyalty and love right.  But you have to have good examples.  And you have to have good kin folk.

In little over a year this family has had more loss than what most families experiences in a decade, and the world has lost three great men.

Friday, November 27, 2015

Update -- November 2015

Mind

This has been the month of Anki addiction.  I had heard about it many times in reading about other language learners, and late last month I finally took the plunge.  Precisely because it is stripped down without the bells and whistles of Memrise, it is so much faster, both in terms of study time and even in making new cards.

I discovered were quite a few fairly common Spanish verbs that I kept "reading around" thinking I sorta knew what they meant, and, nope, I did not.  This month of working on Anki has helped me move past that and has made my reading in Spanish even smoother, and thus even more enjoyable.  Somewhat ironically, by going back to flashcards, with is supposedly a stupid method that doesn't give enough context, I am empowered to do more of the reading that is supposed to give me all the words I need.  I am a believer in reading as the best way to pick up vocabulary, after all, that is how I picked up my vocabulary in English -- but then I had all the time and print access in the world.  I think for my situation it is better to use Anki for some explicit vocabulary study.

I am working on Esperanto again.  It looks like that will be the language I read fluently in for goal #10.  A little flash-card work really processing some key words went a long way.  I can now read Vikipedio, the Wikepedia in Esperanto, with just a little help from an online dictionary.  I then put those words into Anki, either as a) whole sentences b) the word defined with an Esperanto definition or c) the word defined with an image.


Body

I've been working through greasing the groove with modified push-ups.  I do a lot of hanging from my pull up bar.


Spirit

So many beautiful fall days.  I keep telling myself that a year from now I will have more free time to spend walking in them.

The shorter days have oft lead to a crisis of spirit for me, but last year I did well by listening to what the rhythm of the season was saying: just do less.

I pulled the following off the "currently working on" list:

French and Italian vocabulary 
Mental math 
Memorizing a deck of cards 
Memorizing poetry

These are reminders of the time in my life when I was hanging around my father during his terminal illness and the time of the hardest grieving.  I want to go back to each of this projects in due time, which probably means in the summer.

I reread a piece I wrote called Getting the Most out of Life.  It serves as a great little journal entry from that time.  Some of it reads so beautifully that I thought about sharing it with a friend who has been having a tough run, but I notice that is bogged down my my analytical attempts to nerd my goals, so to speak.  I think I am going to write another draft of it, keeping the beautiful, getting rid of the list making and obsession over technique.  I would say those kinds of idiosyncrasies are the heart of the project of this blog.

But the spirit requires another vehicle for expression, which shouldn't be too controversial of an idea.

Friday, October 30, 2015

Update -- October 2015

Spirit

In a class discussion my students didn't seem familiar with sweatshops, so I located and showed them this documentary:




It tied together a thread in my mind, which is that being a non-consumer is a moral imperative.

Also, finishing Animal Farm with my 9th graders always gets me in an anti-authority kind of mood.

Body

I worked through a different tactic to improve my push-ups.  I started with wall push ups, and this month broke being able to do a set of 100 wall push-ups.  Now since I'm really pushing "against" instead of down, I'm not even considering using this as some kind of cheat to claim "mission accomplished."  With me switching to modified push-ups it is going to be harder resist the temptation, however.  But I will probably see it through to

My weight is frankly getting to be a problem again.  I let the stress of grieving (and making up for lost time because of grieving) lead to indulgence.  I'm not judging myself, but it will more of challenge, one I imagine I will not really deal with until the spring.

Mind

Another temporary casualty of the grieving process and my big game of make-up was my intellectual pursuits, particularly what I was doing on Memrise.  My studies of historical dates, French, and Italian have all been more or less caught up.


Monday, September 28, 2015

Update -- September 2015

Spirit

More and more I make time to be on the Sutton Trails.  It has been a big part of my way of working through my father's death.

Going to Colorado and doing some very pleasant hiking did not ruin me for a place like Sutton. Instead, it showed me there are people willing to drive for a bit to go some place beautiful, and do that again and again as a way of life.  The experience gave me permission to go often, which I plan on doing until it gets too cold.

Also, I found the podcast On Being.  It's great to listen to while doing the routine parts of work.  I recommend it over the news of (or even the tips of) the rich and power-addicted.

A really great one is the discussion with the yogi Seane Corn.  But there are so many great ones to choose from, and I have never listened to an out-and-out bad one.

Body

After my father's death I got out of the good habits I had been building up.  The first one I wanted to get back going was working out every day.  I had a colleague who goes to the Y every day right after school and rewards herself with a cola.

Though I do have a long-term wish to quit caffeine, I really seem to like soda, so I am using it as my positive reinforcement.

In spite of my earlier thoughts I don't do yoga instead of running: I do tai chi.  In fairness, though, I did not know just how much time I would end up working yoga poses (and other stretches) into my life by making it a daily routine.

I'm working on my downward dog.  And I got to take care of my lower back.  Really just check out the beginners page at Yoga Journal.

On my resistance training days I continue to experiment with working out at parks, leaning more towards using parks with benches so I can do a horizontal row with it.

I corrected my push up form, but that has me seemingly laughably far away from my 100 push-up in a set goal.  I have a plan for that when I switch out workout protocols:  I think the next thing I will do is work on modified push ups and follow a similar pattern to what I did with greasing the groove for squats.  

Mind

I've done work on turning 3-digit numbers into words in the major memory system.  With these words down, I will be able to encode any number, hacking my short-term memory so I can hold the number and do arithmetic on it.  Yeah, I'm a nerd.  (Didn't you notice the title of the blog?)


Financial

I made another $5,000 payment on the house.   One step closer to paying off the house.

After that money is freed up,  I'll give myself a budget to buy tools.  I believe that in the long run I will can turn a net profit off my tool investments, but I know they will add more joy to my life than any other "entertainment" expense.  I will start with gathering the tools and books for . . .

Intermediate Woodworking

When I start this goal, I imagine that first I'll want to do some warm up projects -- like building birdhouses (I actually want to put them out and use them to attract birds).

Then I have this vision of using wood working skills to make an ideal workshop.  Kinda meta, yeah?  I love the Adam Savage death to drawers idea.

After that, I just want to be a reliable maker.  Someone who can make custom bookshelves or other standing projects.  When I can do that from scratch (my own designs) I will call this item finished.


Monday, August 31, 2015

Into a Holding Pattern

I am more and more noticing a trade-off between a) spending my time doing awesome stuff . . . and b.) spending the time writing about awesome stuff.  I'd rather use the time to get more awesome stuff done.  Therefore, less writing for a while.

My plan is limit this blog to monthly updates for a while -- perhaps 12 months, perhaps indefinitely.

The house should be paid off in 5-6 months.  After that point, I can start thinking about how one would define intermediate wood working skills, how to make a windmill, and things of that sort.

I have already proven that I can write a post every week.  Now, I going to shift my focus to see what I can do this year.

Update

Shortly after writing this I saw this really good piece on not blogging.  It makes a good case for the value of an essay, and how that helps you clarify your thoughts.  But an essay is really not the same thing as blogging about what you are doing, or, still worse, writing ad copy.  An essay is a humble attempt, but one a real attempt. at understanding a topic (which means it is thoughtful (which means it should take time)).

In addition to my monthly updates on goal progress, I will continue to think a lot, especially on beautiful walks, and write down my best thoughts, and questions, in my note books.  During the summer, I may have the motivation to write to make clarify a stance on of the puzzles in my mind, which get revealed and preserved in my notebook.  I will cut down on the quantity of my output and look instead at quality, particularly focusing on pieces only I can write, such as on my life and my father and grandfather.

Friday, August 28, 2015

The Play List at My Father's Funeral

These songs were selected from artists my dad liked.  It more or less fell on me to select the songs and put thought into the order.

1.)  Where Do the Children Play?  Cat Stevens




I picked this one because my father loved children, but also because, like my grandfather before him, he lived a humble life that I think is far closer to the solution than anything the Apple Geniuses are going to come up with.  I think the song itself sets up ambition and the addiction to progress (at any cost) as what destroys the places the children will play.

I really didn't know much about Cat Stevens until I started researching the song list.  My mom mentioned that my dad loved his stuff, and now I see why.

2.) Old Man,  Neil Young.





I actually own the CD this one is from -- Harvest.  I immediately thought of this as my Neil Young song.  I was thinking about the threads connecting my dad to my grandpa, and how tough the late 60's and 70's really must have been.  Also, of course, there are the threads between my father and I.

"Old man take a look at my life.  I'm a lot like you were."

3.) Another Day in Paradise.




My parents once said that Phil Collins was the one musician they both really liked.  That was certainly fine with me.  As to the particular song I selected, that was more up in the air.  Since I knew I couldn't get away with Sussido, I went with "Another Day in Paradise."

In a way these don't seem to be the songs of a Reagan Republican (who at one time was very active in Republican politics), but it is a beautiful and mellow song.


4.) Father and Son.




Upon hearing this for the first time, I knew this was the grand finale.  It sounds great and  it's just genius in that it gets both sides this father/son divide just right.  The father's advice to the son is so good (and how my dad lived his life), but the way the way the dad in the song tried to force his son to listen and refused to understand him drove the child away (thankfully, not how my dad acted).  I think seeing both perspectives at the same time is the key to getting all you can out of the song.

Now playing it as the final song at a funeral also did amazing things to the part where the son is saying he has to go away.  The last words of the song (and functionally of my dad's funeral) are a sad, torn "I have to go"

 . . .  This song is always going to have a special place in my heart.

Obituary for My Father

Max Alan Huddleston was born July 11, 1957, to Virginia and Max Leroy Huddleston in Norman. To avoid confusion with his father, he went by Alan or “Al.”

Alan was dedicated to his family and his neighborhood, with a special gift for making children laugh. He worked a wide variety of jobs, including running several small businesses, managing restaurants, working in apartments and working briefly as a professional magician. Though often shy in crowds, he was always a character at work who found ways to make jokes and brighten people’s day.

He is survived by his mother, his wife Alison,  his brother Ray and wife Connie, as well as his son, Keith and wife Beth.  He was preceded in death last year by his father.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Por versus Para in Spanish

This is from the youtube channel LightSpeed Spanish.



What a neat way to encode a really tricky distinction.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Get the Dao Where I Can

It is very safe to say that over the last 12 months I have been immensly influenced by Daoism.  It has been my way of dealing with the loss of my grandfather, and it will probably be how I deal with the loss of my dad.  It also made me want to take up Tai Chi and play Go.

Both are lovely activities, but neither are at this point my true path (pun intended).  I order my time with Daoism by the following hierarchy:

1) Time in nature, with the right silence, openness, and stillness of mind.  This is where perfect days should be spent.

2) Time with the Daodejing.  Last year I copied passages by hand.  This year I will memorize my favorite passages.  In the future, I might take up calligraphy and really make some beautiful copies.  Also, there is the possibility of copying it in Spanish, French, or other languages.

3) Tai Chi.  I plan to pick it up in the winters, when the land has lost most of its scents and bird song.  True story: I was doing quite a bit of Tai Chi in the winter and then one day I went out in February and I could just smell the spring.  After that, I have not learned any new moves.  I mostly just used it for stretches when we got out of the car during our vacation.  I think when nature speaks to me less, I will take up Tai Chi again.  It's a seasonal thing.

4) The game of Go.  So in the end, I am not going with Go.  A dozen games or so of Go forms the basis of some images that serve as metaphors for the Dao, but after that it just a game.  Granted, an absorbing game full of tactics.  Oh my, just in writing, I am getting an itch to play.  But that is nothing that losing a few games to a computer wont fix.

Go as a metaphor can help in my spiritual enlightenment, but the actual practice of Go does not get past being a game.  And as I get older, I find more satisfaction from getting things done in real life and progressing in useful skills.

I also find more purpose in spirituality.  And I want the time I spend in my life to reflect that.

Improvised Workout . . . Again

Sometimes you just have to improvise.

My dad passed on Friday, so I have stayed the last two nights at my moms. 

I had planned on lifting on Friday, but it was certainly a case of life getting in the way.  Yesterday was a blur, with people coming to visit mom's house a time for depressed torpors.

Today, I decided to get some exercise.  First, I did some body weight stuff at my mom's -- push ups, glut raises, etc.  I find the hardest muscle to work this way to be my biceps.  Today I lifted first a basket with some potatoes, trying to use a slow cadence, but found that to not be quite enough, so I used my dad's air machine (sorry if that seems morbid).

Later in the day I went on to the Sutton Trails, planning on a lovely nature stroll.  Instead, when I followed a new side trail, I found a  new, lovely spot that opens up to the pond.  I also found a nearby tree branch that I know could work as a pull up bar.  I used it for hanging leg raises.  And I was just pleased to know that I never have to go to a gym, or even use my free weights, if I don't want to. 

The philosophy of this workout was based on a blog post on the site Critical MAS.  Like he reported, this workout kicked my butt, but I felt less guilty about all the over eating I continued to do today because, hey, you've got to feed the machine.

All of this really helped to clear my head.  Tomorrow is going to be a rough day since the body will be shown to family.  I needed today for sanity.

Monday, August 17, 2015

New Game: Yoga

When I combine my strength training to one day, I will need to put running more into the mix to have it so I workout every day.

I live in fear, therefore of injures and pain from over-training.  To correct this, I need to give myself an optional out.  On days that I feel like I can run, fine, do it -- it is great.  But on days that I my legs feel messed up, I will take up yoga.

I like, in fact love, the tai chi that I have done, but it doesn't really feel like a workout, so for now I am not going to count it as a workout.  I reserve the right to reverse this opinion, of course.  Most likely, I will combine moves from both and call it a flexibility-based-meditative workout day.  This might also be a good day to work in some more grip work

Here is  a vides of "full spectrum" yoga over at expert village:




Bonus: Since I look at Spanish content reasonably often, searches came up with this Spanish yoga channel.  I can look up a pose in English and see it reinforced, while practicing my Spanish.  Fantastic.



I appreciate how clear the diction is in this video.

Monday, August 10, 2015

How I Work Out Every Day

I am experimenting with working out every day.  This is probably a duh moment for most regular exercisers, but it is easier to form the exercise habit if it is every day.  I find myself also increasingly moving in the direction of running -- what seems to me, anecdotally, to be the exercise most able to get every day adherence.

For now here's what I currently do:

Strength A -- concentration curl, hanging leg raises, static holds to engage pecs
HIT training -- a Tabata set, mostly of jumping jacks, but some side jumps and grapevines
Strength B -- tricep kickback, one-hand planks, kettlebell swings. bridging
HIT training again, or a barefoot run in the greenbelt behind my house

And it goes in a cycle something like this.  I try to never repeat the same type of exercise two days in a row.  In two weeks, I will change the set of strength exercises I do, staying with them for 8 weeks, then changing again, all to prevent over training.

For strength training, I will go back to 15 minute blocks of Escalating Density Training, pairing antagonistic groups.

15 minute PR zone
hanging leg raises
bridges

rest 15

23 minute PR zone
push-ups
bench rows (with towel to make "fat bar")

The workout schedule, starting in two weeks:

M    run (or yoga, if fried or the outside sucks)
T     HIT
W    run (or yoga, if fried or the outside sucks)
Th   HIT
F       lift weights
Sat    run (or yoga, if fried or the outside sucks)
Sun   HIT


The running is for the joy of it.  I checked out the book ChiRunning from the library and am going to work on, noting similarities and differences between it and the Pose method.  It seems that the mechanics of running can work to lower injuries.  Also, since I have a bit of a diversified portfolio of exercises here, I think I minimize injury.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Update (Dvorak Has Taken Over)

Looking back over the summer, I might not have cooked quite as much I planned (though I have started again in earnest lately), and I might not have done as much work in Spanish either, but some things have gone right. 

This summer saw me work out regularly and now I work out every day.  I have been much better at keeping up with household chores, which doesn't impress others, but does make life better. 

But most of all, Dvorak has ingrained itself to the point that I cannot set down on a qwerty keyboard and touch type.  Instead my instincts, at least on the most common keys, are Dvorak.  On a Qwerty key board, I hunt and peck with my head down looking at the keyboard.  It keeps the two keyboard patterns separate, and encourages me to do more Dvorak, and in fact to improve at Dvorak, because it looks like it is now as easy to go forward in Dvorak as it is to go back to Qwerty.

Looking forward six months, it looks like I can have the house paid off.  That goal opens up work on several others on the list.  If I was hungry enough, I could finish the million word Spanish challenge.

Though I doubt I am hungry enough.  (Update: I wasn't.)

Monday, July 27, 2015

Where Will The Jobs Be?

The Atlantic has a piece that may very well be the definitive article on what the future of work is going to look like -- as in nonexistent.

I recommend reading every word of it.  It starts with a clear examination of the human implications, and then moves into some extremely well-organized arguments about automation and then a look at how this future could play out.

Again, read the whole thing, but I want to highlight the opening because it (inadvertently) demonstrates something I have now come to believe -- that we are already through the first phases of the decline of industrial civilization, and that when future generations look back to when the decline started they will see it happened in the late 70's.  This is, after all, when incomes for all but the highest percentiles started to stagnant, and the birth of what we call the "rust belt."  These are known facts, I am just trying to put them in perspective.  I am reminded of a quote by William Gibson that ran something like "the future is here, it is just not evenly distributed yet."  What if Detroit is the future?

Or, imagine if the drought continue in California, the home of 1/5th of the U.S. population, the story of our times will show a great shift that crippled the working class, followed by huge migration to the sunbelt, which became hollowed out due to further automation and ecological catastrophes.

At some point these problems will hit enough people that we'll give up our story of perpetual progress -- after all, many people have already gone down for good.

Still, the point of this blog is about personal progress -- not being a mediocre person and expecting the growth of the society around to bail you out and improve your life.

Monday, July 20, 2015

French Parellel Texts, Spanish Texts

After spending some time on Memrise and learning 272 words in French, I felt much more comfortable reading parallel texts in French.  This comfort isn't something I can objectively measure, but the subjective difference is huge, and I think I could measure adherence rates if I were called on to be more scientific.

I own two lovely books that are anthologies of great French writers, with the left side being the original and the right being a translation.

I do not think, to be clear, that I could do the same thing with Turkish or Russian or such after so few words (my head hurts just thinking about it).  French parallel text reading is possible so quickly because of 1.) cognates with English 2.) cognates with Spanish 3.) (the least important) words I have picked up from my flashcard-like study.  Nonetheless, this has been a real confidence boaster.  It makes me think I can read Italian classics one day as well.

Lastly finally giving in to my desire to learn French seems to have re-motivated me in Spanish.  After the workout of a few pages of French, it is nice to be able to move to much more freely through another foreign language.  It shows me how much progress I have made in Spanish.

Monday, July 13, 2015

On LESS

I have been getting into The Archdruid Report, a blog on the implications of living through the decline of the industrial age.  I got turned onto it through early retirement extreme.

In one of my favorite pieces the Archdruid writes: 

Any attempt to walk the talk that we’ve been discussing here, in other words, has to begin with the individual, and has to start with the acceptance of a very significantly lowered standard of living. To return to an acronym I’ve proposed here already, any response to the future that doesn’t involve using LESS—Less Energy, Stuff, and Stimulation—simply isn’t a serious response to the downside of the industrial age. The toolkit of the Seventies organic gardening and appropriate tech movements, which I’ve discussed here at some length, is among many other things a very effective way of responding to the need to use LESS in a humane and creative manner.

By growing a garden and raising chickens in your backyard instead of buying packaged and processed vegetables and eggs that are shipped halfway across the continent, conserving energy relentlessly and getting as much as you can from local renewable sources, and sharply downscaling the pursuit of material excess in favor of a life that’s rich in experiences, relationships, and meaning, it’s possible to get by very comfortably on a small fraction of the energy, stuff, and stimulation that most Americans think they need.

I couldn't say it better myself (which is of course why I quoted it).

I think I have less stuff down pretty well (though it is certainly arguable).  So that leaves me working on less energy (hence typing this in a house with the AC set at 78 degrees at night and 82-84 during the day (I foresee a time when it is possible that is not enough).

The last one is stimulation.  I think a good step is to make stimulation practically free.  In a big way that is the project of this blog

Next is clearing the mind with things like meditation, spirituality, and moving through nature (walks, hikes, and gardening).  These are many of my favorite things in life, it is important to keep them in the front of my mind.  But they are so quiet that they can easily get lost.

But at least I can say I am working on all of these dimensions of LESS and it will help me to be ahead of the curve in the future.  I urge you to consider doing the same.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Mental Math Saga . . . 10 X 20 table

Sorry for the commercial nature of it, but it is good stuff.

I am not sorry for this guy's intensity; we need to stop being so jaded and ironic.  We should love what we love.



Oh, and if you ever had problems with the 8s times table, here's a video for that as well.

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

The Joy of Missing Dutch Words

I'm really starting to like Dutch again.  When I came back from Nationals, I had over 2,000 words stuck to review on Memrise.  

Recently, I have been trying to whittle it away a bit each day, trying to move down a digit each day.  For example, today I am going to be below 599, and tomorrow's game is to move below 499.  I have an eventual goal of getting everything cleared up before we leave for a vacation -- fully knowing I will have a lot to look through when I come back. 

But that's just the thing -- I have a win/win.  If I remember a word after a break -- score (quite literally, because Memrise plays like a game.)  If I don't remember, then it is an opportunity to make up some silly linkword association. And those are really fun.  And since all of the words are already ones I had to do repetitions on to get through, this creates a euphoric "aha" feeling of something clicking into place.  What can I say? Learning languages is fun.

So instead of feeling bad about what I forgot -- or, what I forgot because of neglect -- this is a joy, made moreso by the faith that I will learn all of the words.

Monday, July 6, 2015

Get a Grip, I Say

In trying to work on strength first so I can a.) be better at building muscle and b.) more useful in real life situations I am taking to heart the advice to work on my core and my grip.  This started with me doing hanging leg raises.  I also read up on some other ideas.

The one I tried to add first was finger-tip push ups, but I discovered yet again that I am a weakling.  This doesn't really bother me, however, it just gives me more games to play during my breaks after I do any bit of intellectual work for 25 minutes.  

My new game is to do regular planks for a bit then take one hand and plant it by the finger tips and then the other and do the same and try to do a finger tip this finger-tip plank. 

Let's pretend I make no progress on this, it'd still be a wonderful way to prevent me moping around during the times it is just too dang hot to go out.  I will never get tired of writing about my revelation brought on by the pomodoro system -- 25 minutes of intellectual work/play and do something physical for 3-5 minutes.  Right now, when a timer goes off, I choose to do a grip and core training 5 days a week (one day doing the hanging leg raises, the next the plank protocol from this post) and then I clean or tidy something.

But in reality, there is progress.  It is measurable and thus it is a game.  It gives a lot of hits along the way and eventually I (probably) get to enjoy a great result.


Saturday, July 4, 2015

Monday, June 29, 2015

Mental Multiplication Tricks

It's been nice being able to go back to memrise.  After going to Nationals and using it as an opportunity for an internet fast, I had a lot of catching up to do.  I have caught up my reviews in French, literary dates, other historical dates,  capitals, number systems, and now the mental multiplication I had started.  I still have to catch up my reviews in Dutch and toki pona, but that is a separate story.

As much fun as it was trying to use the major memory system to try think of bizarre images to remember the facts "on sight" I think I'd rather invest in learning and practicing some mental tricks to do more of the math as computation and leave "sight facts" to the what remains.  So what should be easy to compute?   

Well, 11s for one easy case.  

Here's a grab bag of tricks, which covers 9s, 5, and supposedly any power of 2, but honestly trying to turn 14 X 32 into (14 X 2 X 2 X 2 X 2 X 2) is a little unwieldy, but the idea is a really good short-cut and allows me to think about using other powers as well.

Also, a wikibook offers the following fun trick: 
Let's say you are multiplying two numbers, just two two-digit numbers for now (though the rules could be adapted for others) which start with the same digit and the sum of their unit digits is 10. For example, 87×83 (sum of unit digits: 7+3=10). You multiply the first digit by one more than itself (8×9 = 72). Then multiply the second digits together (7×3 = 21). Then stick the first answer at the start of the second to get the answer (7221). A simple proof of how this works is given in the Wikipedia article on Swami Bharati Krishna Tirtha's Vedic mathematics. If the result from the multiplication of the unit digits is less than 10, simply add a zero in front of the number (i.e., 9 becomes 09). For example, 59×51 is equal to [5×6][9×1] which equals [30][09]. Thus 59×51 = 3009.

Lastly, on this research journey I found out about so-called Vedic Mathematics and the Trachenberg System. 

All can help me as I slowly (around 5 facts a day) work through the 100 X 100 times table.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Still a Weakling

The last two days I've been able to organize my time again with 25 minutes of some kind of intellectual play/work and then a few minutes of doing something physical that had to be done.  On the hour, I've been doing the hanging leg raises.

It's not really the leg raising that is killing me, but rather the hanging part.  Yup, I'm still pretty much a weakling . . .  but I have made progress and have faith that I will continue to.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Let's Go With Go

I am indeed starting off again in learning the game of Go.  My first textbook will be River Mountain Go.

It has this advice:

as you read this book, please play at least ten games of Go for every chapter you read. If you play one game of Go per day, spend about a week on each chapter. 

That's the kind of advice I like to hear; I want to play the game and enjoy my summer -- a real summer now that Nationals has ended.

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Back from Nationals

This summer has so far really been about improving the lives of my students as I help them follow their goals and dreams.

Now I get to work more on my own self-improvement, which is less satisfying, frankly, at least in the short run.  I think I'll get out of this slightly empty feeling soon and start having more and more fun.

First up, I am going to do some more memory work, particularly with dates, but I might learn how to memorize a deck of cards in order.

Furthermore, I will now start to work in earnest at the million word challenge in Spanish.  I plan on building a rocket stove soon and ramp up experimentation on soups and sauces.  I have a vision of working soups and sauces outdoors during warm months and making bread indoors during the winter (heating the house while getting a useful bi-product).  That, and my garden, working out, and playing Go should be enough to keep me busy and happy until it is time for school again.

Monday, June 15, 2015

A Turn Back To Go?

While I haven't been blogging much, on account of the learning curve with learning Dvorak, I have been doing a lot of thinking and walking, and some meditating.  There have been many epiphanies, including the meta-epiphany that I can and should have my epiphanies about my craft of teaching, and that is as much of a challenge, and spiritual journey, as any.

In addition, on those long walks, my mind keeps going back to a need to make the spaces at school work for me better.  One idea is plants, another is a desktop sized waterfall, and yet another is the screaming need inside of me to declutter my classroom (naturally, I have started there, working on getting rid of much of what I inherited in the classroom), but lastly I see again and again in my mind's eye a Go board.

The game stands out as a representation of harmony in motion.  This is important because I don't have a window. and thus I have no portal to nature.  A Go game can represent that dynamism, I think. For it to really be beautiful, I will need to understand the game a bit better.  

For beauty's sake, the game of Go may be the next thing I work on.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Hanging Leg Raises (and Bridges)

I have been working on and off on the 1 set of 100 push ups since I began this my self-improvement journey in earnest.  But I'm still not close.  I think the biggest hang up is core strength, at least my abs are what hurts the first and the most when I am trying to get more push-ups in. I remember hearing Pavel Tsatsouline say that the best ways to be more functionally strong are grip strength and the core, so this prioritization makes sense on that level as well.

To work on both my pathetic grip strength and my core, I am going to the convict conditioning playbook and work hanging leg raises into my routine when I get back from Nationals (I leave tomorrow).  Also. I will start working on bridging.

Notes from a video:

  • inhale on the negative
  • exhale on the raise
  • tightly pull in navel

Monday, June 8, 2015

Unlearning Qwerty

Today is the first day I have tried to type something on a qwerty keyboard and typed it wrong because of how it goes in Dvorak.

I'm unlearning qwerty and on my way to internalizing Dvorak.

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Procrastination Chronicles #12 : Improvised Workout

On the path to greatness, there will be 100 overcomings.

I will chronicle my attempts to overcome procrastination.  My technique is to start small, really small.

My favorite post in the series is #3 Dealing with a Bunch of Crap.

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My diet and workouts have been stacked together thus:  5 days a week I do light exercise (walking or garden-work) and eat 1,200 calories (no breakfast, a very light lunch, and then a pretty substantial snack-and-dinner block), on the 6th day I do my weight training and then eat like crazy for two days.

Well, that's the plan, at least.  Yesterday I was eating a bunch before I worked out, which went against my protocol, then, when I thought was going to be able to work out stuff came up . . .  and kept coming up.

Then it became Sunday, which means it was time for family, starting with visiting my grandmother, and with that meant more offers of food.  What to do?

I am proud of my solution:  I improvised a workout.  I snuck away and did a set of push-ups.  Then I came and chatted a bit while watching tennis (the French Open final).  After a bit, I snuck away again and tried to work my arms by lifting the bed in the guest room, but noticed that in the stance I needed to be in my legs got the bulk of the workout, so I switched to a chair, but the necessary grip worked my abs.  Finally, I found a chair that I was able to lift using a row motion and thus got some decent reps for my biceps.  I wasn't able to figure anything (which after all wasn't mine to mess with) that I could use for a kettle bell swing motion, but other than that, it was a pretty good workout.  While grandma made lunch, I also did some air squats, bringing back memories of when I did them for an earlier fitness challenge.

The workout might not have been perfect, but at least it got done, which is one of the most powerful anti-procrastination tactics.  And maybe the workout helped work things in a new, helpful way.

I'm going to do some kettlebell swings now.


Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Dvorak Is Clicking

Today is the first day where typing in Dvorak is really starting to "click."  This clicking is not intellectual, but physical.

The last systematic error to go was the inversion of "y" and "f."  There are still others that happen, especially when I go quickly (alas like I right now as I am typing these words), but I am starting to feel the belief that I will learn Dvorak up to full proficiency.   Last week typing was a challenge, really a struggle.  Today, on the other hand, typing with Dvorak is merely slow.  I feel comfortable expressing myself with Dvorak.

Monday, June 1, 2015

Groceries

Writing in Dvorak has slowed my writing and my posts are certainly more terse than they would ordinarily -- so my apologies for that.  

I just got back from getting groceries.  I was bummed about spending $34, but then I realized that I had bought two weeks worth of stuff.  I am stretching my canned soup out by bringing some glass containers and eating it over two days -- 180 calories each day.  So that's lunch.

For dinners, most of the staples I need are still in the house from previous purchases.  That's a great thing about cooking from staples.  All I had to buy was some chicken and some more cheese and tortillas.

I should be covered in the food department until I buy supplies for Nationals.

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

It's What You Know That Aint So

"It ain't what you don't know that gets you into trouble. It's what you know for sure that just ain't so."
Mark Twain.

This sums up my problems in Dvorak.  I have noticed some mistakes that I am making almost systematically

I hit "e" instead of "o" (actually, I make a bizarre "n," then "e," then "o" sequence)
         "f" instead of "y" (this one is because of the location of the key in qwerty )
When going fast, I type "." instead of "e" -- also because of where it is in qwerty.

The key now is not learning, but unlearning.  Typing in exclusively in Dvorak gives me a purpose to learn -- each of these mistakes cost me time.  So often while typing I will repeat a mnemonic a few times after I make a mistake.  For example, my mnemonic for "o" is that it is a ring on my ring finger.  In this manner I hope to rewrite the habit more quickly than bumbling around.







Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Mental Gymnastics

My second post in Dvorick.

This one is a bit of a goofy journey.  It started with me watching a few basketball documentaries, you know, to celebrate the start of the summer.  One of them was about when the Knicks were actually good.  It focused briefly on Jerry Lucas, one of the great eccentrics to play the game.

He was odd because he played a lot of memory games, including memorization, counting, and rearranging words by alphabetic order of letters -- the example he gives is "cat" rearranges to "act."

This made me want to get back into memorizing.  I had learned the major memory system on memrise.com and used it to learn a large framework of historical dates.  So I went back to looking for dates to learn.  And as a by-product I started back with French, so that has been fun.

Anyway, I was at a social gathering today. and so I thought I would exercise some of this active mind stuff.  First I tried counting, but it was too dark and it was a bit boring.  I decided to rearrange  the letters in words, but I ran into the problem that I only know the alphabet through the "abc" song.  My solution was to go through the alphabet and use a peg list to associate a number to each letter.  The first five I knew, and of course "z" is 26.  I set out to learn the number for the other 20 letters.

Big progress was made today.  I should more or less have it down with review tomorrow.

Monday, May 25, 2015

My First Post Written In Dvorick

I'm now going cold-turkey.  I'm doing everything in Dvorick.

Slow-going, but it gives me more motivation to learn.

So It's Summer

On the bucket-list, I will be moving toward lower body-fat, being able to read Spanish fluently (after finishing my million word challenge) make progress on 100 push ups, and turning my Roth IRA into equity in my home (getting us close to having the whole thing paid off).

Also, on Monday, I plan on making the cold-turkey switch-over to Dvorak typing.

Other than that, and working on cooking (especially after I build a rocket stove), my over-arching project will be working on meditation.  I need to elaborate on it more in the future, but to give a sketch here, I have 3 meditation projects: 1.) be able to mediate for a long time, as part of the goal of decreasing wants 2.) go through a protocol to be able to get "in the zone" instantly 3.) be able to mediate through noise.  All three are about taking where I am and gradually building up, or the in the case of the "zone protocol" working down the time it takes.

Another way of saying it is that I'm working on self mind-control.  And while that's the ultimate free hobby, I am really doing it to make the best life possible.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Walk to Work

It is well known that I love the site Early Retirement Extreme.

I wish I could do more of it.  For example, today I walked home from work.  It'd be nice to do that every day.  If it were feasible, I could get rid of a car (saving thousands of dollars in the process) and I'd be much more physically fit.  

Those thousands of dollars aren't exactly chicken feed.  Once my house is paid off, the biggest expense I will have will be transportation.  Or at least, this is true considering I do know how to cook and garden, and will continue to expand my skills over the summer.  In fact, I should get chickens and use those transportation costs as chicken feed.  

Anyway, I really could lower my yearly costs to something like $3,000-4,000.  Which I know sounds crazy, but I honestly believe holds up.  I'd be healthier, less cluttered, more spiritual, and possibly happier.  

And a cost basis like that makes it so much easier to find a way to achieve goals like active employment that pays my bills in 8 hours of work a week (because I am only half as smart as Tim Ferris, of course).  It also means I need a small fraction of the same reserves to have enough passive income to live off as well. 

That's enough talk about that.  For now, I'll just do what I can.

Monday, May 18, 2015

Dao Yourself a Favor

Read this translation of the Daodejing (Tao Te Ching) of Laozi.

There are certain passages, including my core 5 favorite, that I like rendered better in other translations, but the scholarship of the one above is just fantastic.  Some of the passage that make no sense to me finally do through this translation.

Sunday, May 17, 2015

A Week Now to a Mini-Retirement

As I set up for a bout of mini-retirement, an Onion article.

In an effort to help working individuals improve their fitness and well-being, experts at the Mayo Clinic issued a new set of health guidelines Thursday recommending that Americans stand up at their desk, leave their office, and never return

Progress in a Time of Decline

This is an idea I'll probably need to expand on some other time, but I wanted to get it down. I believe that civilization is on the decline. I believe we are in a time of pretense where that truth is going to be pushed more and more out of the collective conversation. Americans are going to have to give up their absurd waste habit -- and they will go down kicking and screaming the entire way.  So be it.

I want to point out that a person can make progress in their health, spirituality and social life even in a time of political and economic decline.  In fact, on all three it is almost certainly easier.  Happiness and virtue remain paths that can be walked even as the mass production of stuff weakens. 

Also, realizing the truth of this decline -- reminded forcefully by reading the article linked to above (please read the 2nd to last paragraph) -- makes me want to spend a lot less time playing Diplomacy and more time working on my garden, and learning to cook with a rocket stove.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Procrastination Chronicles # 11: A Paper (Zuuuummba!)


On the path to greatness, there will be 100 overcomings.

I will chronicle my attempts to overcome procrastination.  My technique is to start small, really small.

My favorite post in the series is #3 Dealing with a Bunch of Crap.

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To help my students have the motivation to write there final papers in English, I committed to writing one as well.  I had a reasonable plan of action: I would stay late on Friday and start the paper.  Or failing that, I would go eat an early dinner and start the paper.

So . . .  of course . . . there I was midnight on Sunday, feeling really pissed off and not at all wanting to start a paper. . . "What kind of madness is this", I thought, "I'm a grown up, I retired from being a student.  I wrote all the paper I need to write." It felt in that moment as though it were the most uninteresting task in the world. (All of this should help me feel sympathy for my students -- which was part of the point of the exercise).

So I busted out pretty much all of my techniques, including a new one.  I want to first explain that new technique.

I read about it in Poder Sin Limites por Tony Robbins (ie it was Tony Robbin's Unlimited Power, which I'm reading in Spanish (go million word challenge!)  Anyway, I'm hazy on it, because, you know, other language, but I reckon Robbins was pointing out that your imagination uses all of your senses, and that you have the power to do some really cool manipulation.  For example, you can take any image and just make it brighter in your mind's eye.  You can make it louder.  Try it.

So, when you feel that dread toward working you are seeing something.  Take that image, which is probably already a dull image, and dim the heck out of it, and in your imagination implode it, kind of like crumbling a piece of paper.  Shove that imagine off to the side.  Replace it with a bright, vivid image of you doing the first step of the task, or even better yet, of you being in a flow state doing the work. . .  Repeat this about 6 times in rapid succession.  Crush the old image, push it to the side, see the vibrant image that you know the work can be.   And for some reason, Tony Robbins wants to you say something dorky while you do this.  In the Spanish translation it's Zuuumbaaa!  (Yeah, I didn't really do that step; my wife was sleeping.)

Still, that was the initial push I needed, even though I was already tired and cranky.  I also pre-warded myself the way I do, playing some music, eating some ice cream while doing the first step (my weekend are my free days again -- and I did not live up to the no sugar challenge).

After that, predictably, the work got done, and it turned out to be really fun work.

Finally. . . Learning French

After I got done with my Dutch course on Memrise, I just felt  . . .  itchy to keep learning (the site's addictive, man).  So I started working on French courses.  And I can tell that it is going to be great.

I have a lot more resources for French than Dutch -- not only good, fun courses (ie ones with no typing), but I own more books in French and have a bunch of movies with French dubbing and/or French sub-titles.

I have held back from French for a long time because I didn't want it to interfere with Spanish, but that I've started, I just don't feel like I can, or even should, stop the rush.   I don't see too much interference so far, but the combination of being a native English speaker and knowing a goodly amount of Spanish makes it so I can already read parallel texts of French much, much more comfortably than I can in my current level of Dutch.

If do several thousand (or, I dunno 10-20,000 words) of French on Memrise and read my two parallel text books of French short stories two or three times, and watch some movies in French here and there, I can probably be at a pretty good level in French by the end of the summer.

That and my million word challenge in Spanish might make it two reading languages down and one to go when the school year starts back up.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

The Diet . . . Working

175.9

That was certainly pleasant to see.  I'm 25 pounds less than my cringe-inducing high.  

It's nice to see results with this diet of 5 days of calorie restriction, followed by lifting and 2 days of eating a bunch to fuel muscle growth (and the psychological benefit of getting to eat a bunch of good tasting stuff).

Monday, May 4, 2015

Practice Silence . . . Or Stillness

Last week I wrote about changing the wording of something -- talking about self-employment instead of (extremely) early retirement --  to make it more palatable.

I think a similar change might be in order for "go into the silence."   I think I prefer "practice silence," or, even better, "practice stillness."  First of all I am often wary of "the" formulations.  They seem big and official.  Secondly, I like "practice" because it is expresses our capacity to improve -- most people aren't going to be very good at silence/stillness at first.  Thirdly, "silence" is simply not making noise yourself.  "Stillness" more readily has connotations of working both the inside and outside.

I believe that the good life requires the removal of unnecessarily movement, both physical and mental.  This is more fundamental than just a tool for more accomplishments.  This is the best way to live.

So my last problem with the phrase "go into the silence" is that in the formulation by Howard E. Hill treats silence only as a tool.  Silence leads to creativity, creativity leads to money.  That is a path.  But practicing silence stillness can mean much more than that.

Saturday, May 2, 2015

177

177.7, to be exact.

Well, for the first time since I was 201 pounds, I am now down to the weight where I used to start diets in my 20s.

This gives me some confidence on the "just eat less (6 days a week) plan."

But the goal on the bucket list isn't really weight.  It's body fat percentage.  So, theoretically, if I could gain 10 pounds of muscle that would still shift the body fat percentage more in my favor.  So while hitting that 177 mark is a milestone, I should keep my focus on the right things.

Furthermore, if I gained muscle, it should move up my resting metabolism, thus helping me to speed up fat loss.

The problem is that building muscle is a lot of work, and that takes a lot of calories.  So my solution is to go back to something I was doing during the summer, when I had more time to tinker with this stuff: lift on a day, eat huge that day and the next, and then do 5 days of some kind of restricted diet.  In this case the restricted diet will be 1,300 calories a day or less.  Add in plenty of light exercise like walking and gardening on those other five days, and we'll see what happens to my body fat percentage.

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

The Dvorak Countdown

Today being my reverse Sabbath day, I had to see if Dvorak was on my computer already, something I had been avoiding because of a vague dread that somehow all the websites were wrong and my computer somehow uniquely did not have it.  It's not something I stopped and thought about; it just flitting in and then out of my mind, as do so many of blocks that cause us to procrastinate -- many, many are just phantoms of the mind.

Well, it's there.




I have been doing lessons on this site, focusing just on the home row (which accounts for 70% of all the strokes I'll be making in the system).  On the first day of the summer, I am making the switch . . . total cold turkey at that point.  

Cold turkey is going to be necessary because now that I am over the initial feeling of terrible discomfort (something that really only lasted 30 minutes), I am on to a type of intermediate hell where it's not what I'm learning that is the problem, but instead my old habits.  Since I am doing so much of my typing in regular 'ol qwerty, I keep retrenching where the "s" and "d" keys are in qwerty. I can tell that a very large part of my mastery of Dvorak will be un-learning those key keys (and key key combinations).  Also, I will just have practice, practice, practice until the new keys become a matter of muscle memory.  

This step is perhaps the most important in developing compassion.  After all, this step means that intellectually know what you should be doing, but your old habits keep zapping you.  So, let's take the case of a young person trying to be responsible, or even ethical.  Just because they "know better" really isn't enough.  I need to give someone trying at least as long as it takes me to get my key strokes right on this new typing system.  

And probably longer.

Monday, April 27, 2015

An Unspeakable Dream

As much I love the site Early Retirement Extreme, I have noticed that it really unsettles people when I talk about being retired at the age of 40.  My first instinct is to want to say, "hey, listen, Jacob at ERE was able to to retire at the age of 30.  I mean, come on,  I'm committing myself to working 10 years more that!"

But I have found that in communication -- especially when the stakes are highest -- your first instinct is usually wrong.

One trick I have found is to not talk about "retirement," but self-employment.  And while you, fair reader, could stretch the meaning of word "employment," in my case it is actually strictly speaking true. I want to plan on working on average 8 hours a week to get money to pay my expenses.  This will allow my money to compound in case an emergency comes up, and as insurance against infirmity.

I set the number at 8 hours on the theory I am probably half as smart as Jacob at ERE (article on his 4 hour work week), and hugely less cunning and self-promoting than life-hacker extraordinaire Tim Ferris (look up the 4 Hour Work Week for yourself; the dude has enough links).

Another way to speak of my dream is to speak of it as an unspeakable dream.  This has become the euphemism of choice around our household.

I am well on track for my unspeakable dream of bumming around with some causal work thrown in self-employment by 40.

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Dvorak

I am starting to learn the Dvorak typing system, which is a typing system with the most commonly used keys on the "home row."

I'm not learning it for speed.  I am already a good touch-typist, able to freak kids out by rapidly typing things they say on the screen while scanning the classroom and making eye-contact with the kids.  If you're already good at typing, then the Dvorak method doesn't promise to dramatically increase your typing speed.

I decided to make the Dvorak switch for 3 reasons:

1.) For joint health.  The efficiency of the key placement means your hands move a great deal less over the course of a typing session, and thus over the months and years it can save miles of hand movement.

2.) To go awkward-feeling steps in learning.  This one sounds counter-intuitive, but anything you learn is going to have these steps, so I think everyone should learn to become comfortable with being uncomfortable toward greater learning goals.  In my profession as a teacher, it is especially important to experience learning awkwardness so you can have more compassion for your students who are learning.

3.) It give me a knew field of things to learn and play around with.  Such as this video:


So because of Dvorak, I have discovered the engineerguy Youtube channel, which I imagine will serve me well as I try to develop skills with mechanics and building.

This benefit should not be minimized.  One of the reasons to do something like learn is so you can find new sites you never would have been able to find otherwise.  More and more frontiers open, whether it is Dvorak or Dutch, and you never know where it will lead.  And that is a big part of the joy.

Update
I now type in Dvorak and have to search and peck (more or less) whenever I am stuck on a QWERTY keyboard.  But, yeah, I love Dvorak, and probably find it worth investing all the time (and awkwardness) over the summer to learn.

Slow Carb is Dead, Long Live the Diet

180.6

I'm off the slow carb diet.  At least the way I was doing it, it made me too spacey and cranky (bad combination).  I suppose I should have ate a lot more beans, and probably should have tried to re-experiment with fasting until 3:30.  Life and learn.

Two other factors: 1.) slow carb caused some friction with my wife about the places we could eat and what I could make for dinner and 2.) I have grown to hate most meats at most restaurants, so there was a gross out factor that kept plaguing me these last two weeks.  Trying to figure out what and where to eat with a brain not working right and getting increasingly frustrated with

I have in the past lost a lot of weight under the slow-carb rules, and so that was why I wanted to to do it again, but I have also lost weight simply going 6 days a week on 1,300 calories, and then a free day.  My numbers show the slow-carb diet was faster at getting weight loss, but quality of life has to play into this decision as well.

I really want to crack 177.  This is the weight at which I would usually start diets in college.  Several times that weight became my "wake up call."  When I weighed 200 pounds, I thought with sadness how long it would take to even get back to that number.  I think it would be great -- very motivating -- to be below that number again.   That's why I was willing to slow carb again, and even deal with a little pain.  But it was getting ridiculous, and I can't afford to be mean as a teacher or husband.



Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Reverse Sabbath

Ever since writing about an idea I had read, I have been experimenting with what I am calling now "a reverse Sabbath."  This doesn't mean I work only day and completely rest the other days (I wish).  Instead, I concentrate into one day a week every thing I have not been working on, especially what I have been feeling guilty about not doing.  


Monday, April 20, 2015

Slow Carb: After 1st Free Day

182

My new strategy is to go a little nuts . . .

Today I ate 4-5 almonds every hour, starting when I got to school.  This kept down hunger pretty well, something I noticed as a problem last week when I was trying to fast until 3:30.

I was also able to try to re-start greasing the groove for push-ups, something I had unfortunately let slide during the last part of the debate season.  By coupling the push-ups with the eating, I actually got it done.

Only 5 a set for, so I can get into the habit.

Added: Reading in 3 Foreign Languages

I have made 3 additions to my bucket list: being able to read smoothly in Spanish, Dutch, and French.  So that establishes who will do it, but let's go through some of those other W-5 and H questions. . .

What?


I will define reading smoothly as being able to understand on sight 98% of the words on pages aimed at average adults.  I know from Spanish that once you hit that 98% point, you actually can figure out most of the words by context, or at least get through the text with one or two quick glances at a dictionary.  Anything below that is pretty much tortuous for me.  I don't have a personal tolerance for the not-knowing.

Wikipedia articles are a good benchmark.  Novels for a general audience (not classics or "literary works") also fit.  Though I want to read some classics, that kind of reading is usually very arduous, even for languages where you are a native speaker.


How 


When I finish my 1,000,000 word challenge in Spanish, I am going to cross it off the list.  I am probably at the 98% level in reading right now, but I am going to hold crossing off a finished goal as motivation for my challenge.

I have a large personal library of Spanish books and the public library has a good selection as well.  Finding interesting stuff to read, even more my picky tastes, is not that difficult at all.

I own 7 physical books in French, and will let myself supplement that number when I get to French.  Also, by some miracle, I own 3 printed books in Dutch.  Lastly, there is quite a bit of good materials available for free online in all three languages.

Since I have an obsession with thinking about methods, and organizing those thoughts, I will present the extended version of my plans:

First, while finishing the previous language, I start playing with the next one on Memrise.  I find the only thing I like there is the "no typing courses."  When I hit the winter of feeling comfortable with a language, I will switch to  doing a tweaked version of Iverson's wordlist method.  I did a trial run with it on some Dutch words, and found it much more time efficient, or least far more pleasant, than doing a memrise course that requires typing.  Also, it should be noted that my goal is really reading only -- I want the best version of people's ideas and I have no desire to pump more small-talk into the world, especially in another tongue.  With enough words, you really start puzzling out texts, even if your grammar is far shakier.

After 5,000 or so words in this method, combined with 2,000-3,000 words and sentences from Memrise, I will start reading parallel texts as soon, moving up from children's literature to more and more authentic, grown-up texts.  I am going to do this first in Dutch, then in French.

When


As long as it takes.  If my wife and I have a child, then my focus will clearly be elsewhere.  So I estimate that this could take 10 years at the maximum, and 2 and a half at a minimum.  We'll see.

Where


Just at home.  I really don't like travel.  I wont be chatting online.  I will keep getting conversation practice in Spanish, so I do plan on being bilingual, but after that I am only working toward being poly-literate.

Why? 


It's fun.  It's good for the brain, and looks as impressive as nearly any of the other bucket-list goals.

No, seriously, why Dutch?  


I heard it was easy for an English speaker to learn, so I have played with it in the past and saw I liked it.  One thing I really dig is how the "g" makes a very phlegmy "hhhuuu" sound.  I like how Dutch has more agglutination than English (without going all agglutination crazy), and I like how it as least gives me a taste of the Germanic side our language (and sure, I might learn other Germanic languages one day as well).

Dutch is a really fun language that deserves some of my play-time.


Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Slow Carb, Day 2

180.8

Wow.  It always amazes me when I get that initial burst of water-weight lost.  It also shows that I had been doing a better job treading-water on my weight than I had thought.  This gives me hope that after this month's slow carb push I might be able to keep my weight in a normal range simply "adjusting my relationship with food."

Todays' pre-dinner snack was chard from cooked in garlic and butter, followed by me using the same pan to fry two eggs with dandelions and onion greens . . . from the garden.

Monday, April 13, 2015

Slow Carb-ing Again. Day 1.

185.6 pounds

This time my slow carb experience is going to have several tweaks:

First, on my Sunday "free days" I will still not allow myself any simple sugars.  I have found that on weeks where my "free days" don't get to 4,000 calories, I lose weight quicker, which makes a lot of sense.  Without sugars my free days shouldn't spin out of control.

Secondly, my lunch is going to go back to "the set point" diet of two spoons of extra-light olive oil and then coffee.  (The coffee around the time of the oil might not be technically allowed, but I found that it was fine the last time I was doing the set-point diet).

Thirdly, I have a better at-home quantity of vegetables and foragable weeds than ever.  Today, I came home and made a huge salad of arugula leaves and flowers.  I made a delightful balsamic vinaigrette for it, with enough left over that I went casting about for more greens: making a second bowl-sized salad with clover and a bit more arugula.  Tomorrow, I can make a salad with lettuce and radish, or wilt chard greens, or soak enough mint to get enough leaves for a large salad.  This will be a lovely experiment in getting enough fiber.

The Abolition of Work

This is a piece by Bob Black.   Though I really don't find the politics or the life of Bob Black to be for me, I agree with 95% (or so) of this particular piece.   It is not under copyright, so I have copied it here:

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No one should ever work.

Work is the source of nearly all the misery in the world. Almost any evil you'd care to name comes from working or from living in a world designed for work. In order to stop suffering, we have to stop working.

That doesn't mean we have to stop doing things. It does mean creating a new way of life based on play; in other words, a ludic conviviality, commensality, and maybe even art. There is more to play than child's play, as worthy as that is. I call for a collective adventure in generalized joy and freely interdependent exuberance. Play isn't passive. Doubtless we all need a lot more time for sheer sloth and slack than we ever enjoy now, regardless of income or occupation, but once recovered from employment-induced exhaustion nearly all of us want to act. Oblomovism and Stakhanovism are two sides of the same debased coin.

The ludic life is totally incompatible with existing reality. So much the worse for "reality," the gravity hole that sucks the vitality from the little in life that still distinguishes it from mere survival. Curiously -- or maybe not -- all the old ideologies are conservative because they believe in work. Some of them, like Marxism and most brands of anarchism, believe in work all the more fiercely because they believe in so little else.

Liberals say we should end employment discrimination. I say we should end employment. Conservatives support right-to-work laws. Following Karl Marx's wayward son-in-law Paul Lafargue I support the right to be lazy. Leftists favor full employment. Like the surrealists -- except that I'm not kidding -- I favor full unemployment. Trotskyists agitate for permanent revolution. I agitate for permanent revelry. But if all the ideologues (as they do) advocate work -- and not only because they plan to make other people do theirs -- they are strangely reluctant to say so. They will carry on endlessly about wages, hours, working conditions, exploitation, productivity, profitability. They'll gladly talk about anything but work itself. These experts who offer to do our thinking for us rarely share their conclusions about work, for all its saliency in the lives of all of us. Among themselves they quibble over the details. Unions and management agree that we ought to sell the time of our lives in exchange for survival, although they haggle over the price. Marxists think we should be bossed by bureaucrats. Libertarians think we should be bossed by businessmen. Feminists don't care which form bossing takes so long as the bosses are women. Clearly these ideology-mongers have serious differences over how to divvy up the spoils of power. Just as clearly, none of them have any objection to power as such and all of them want to keep us working.

You may be wondering if I'm joking or serious. I'm joking and serious. To be ludic is not to be ludicrous. Play doesn't have to be frivolous, although frivolity isn't triviality: very often we ought to take frivolity seriously. I'd like life to be a game -- but a game with high stakes. I want to play for keeps.

The alternative to work isn't just idleness. To be ludic is not to be quaaludic. As much as I treasure the pleasure of torpor, it's never more rewarding than when it punctuates other pleasures and pastimes. Nor am I promoting the managed time-disciplined safety-valve called "leisure"; far from it. Leisure is nonwork for the sake of work. Leisure is the time spent recovering from work and in the frenzied but hopeless attempt to forget about work. Many people return from vacation so beat that they look forward to returning to work so they can rest up. The main difference between work and leisure is that work at least you get paid for your alienation and enervation.

I am not playing definitional games with anybody. When I say I want to abolish work, I mean just what I say, but I want to say what I mean by defining my terms in non-idiosyncratic ways. My minimum definition of work is forced labor, that is, compulsory production. Both elements are essential. Work is production enforced by economic or political means, by the carrot or the stick. (The carrot is just the stick by other means.) But not all creation is work. Work is never done for its own sake, it's done on account of some product or output that the worker (or, more often, somebody else) gets out of it. This is what work necessarily is. To define it is to despise it. But work is usually even worse than its definition decrees. The dynamic of domination intrinsic to work tends over time toward elaboration. In advanced work-riddled societies, including all industrial societies whether capitalist or "Communist," work invariably acquires other attributes which accentuate its obnoxiousness.

Usually -- and this is even more true in "Communist" than capitalist countries, where the state is almost the only employer and everyone is an employee -- work is employment, i. e., wage-labor, which means selling yourself on the installment plan. Thus 95% of Americans who work, work for somebody (or something) else. In the USSR or Cuba or Yugoslavia or any other alternative model which might be adduced, the corresponding figure approaches 100%. Only the embattled Third World peasant bastions -- Mexico, India, Brazil, Turkey -- temporarily shelter significant concentrations of agriculturists who perpetuate the traditional arrangement of most laborers in the last several millenia, the payment of taxes (= ransom) to the state or rent to parasitic landlords in return for being otherwise left alone. Even this raw deal is beginning to look good. All industrial (and office) workers are employees and under the sort of surveillance which ensures servility.

But modern work has worse implications. People don't just work, they have "jobs." One person does one productive task all the time on an or-else basis. Even if the task has a quantum of intrinsic interest (as increasingly many jobs don't) the monotony of its obligatory exclusivity drains its ludic potential. A "job" that might engage the energies of some people, for a reasonably limited time, for the fun of it, is just a burden on those who have to do it for forty hours a week with no say in how it should be done, for the profit of owners who contribute nothing to the project, and with no opportunity for sharing tasks or spreading the work among those who actually have to do it. This is the real world of work: a world of bureaucratic blundering, of sexual harassment and discrimination, of bonehead bosses exploiting and scapegoating their subordinates who -- by any rational-technical criteria -- should be calling the shots. But capitalism in the real world subordinates the rational maximization of productivity and profit to the exigencies of organizational control.

The degradation which most workers experience on the job is the sum of assorted indignities which can be denominated as "discipline." Foucault has complexified this phenomenon but it is simple enough. Discipline consists of the totality of totalitarian controls at the workplace -- surveillance, rotework, imposed work tempos, production quotas, punching -in and -out, etc. Discipline is what the factory and the office and the store share with the prison and the school and the mental hospital. It is something historically original and horrible. It was beyond the capacities of such demonic dictators of yore as Nero and Genghis Khan and Ivan the Terrible. For all their bad intentions they just didn't have the machinery to control their subjects as thoroughly as modern despots do. Discipline is the distinctively diabolical modern mode of control, it is an innovative intrusion which must be interdicted at the earliest opportunity.

Such is "work." Play is just the opposite. Play is always voluntary. What might otherwise be play is work if it's forced. This is axiomatic. Bernie de Koven has defined play as the "suspension of consequences." This is unacceptable if it implies that play is inconsequential. The point is not that play is without consequences. This is to demean play. The point is that the consequences, if any, are gratuitous. Playing and giving are closely related, they are the behavioral and transactional facets of the same impulse, the play-instinct. They share an aristocratic disdain for results. The player gets something out of playing; that's why he plays. But the core reward is the experience of the activity itself (whatever it is). Some otherwise attentive students of play, like Johan Huizinga (Homo Ludens),define it as game-playing or following rules. I respect Huizinga's erudition but emphatically reject his constraints. There are many good games (chess, baseball, Monopoly, bridge) which are rule-governed but there is much more to play than game-playing. Conversation, sex, dancing, travel -- these practices aren't rule-governed but they are surely play if anything is. And rules can be played with at least as readily as anything else.

Work makes a mockery of freedom. The official line is that we all have rights and live in a democracy. Other unfortunates who aren't free like we are have to live in police states. These victims obey orders or-else, no matter how arbitrary. The authorities keep them under regular surveillance. State bureaucrats control even the smaller details of everyday life. The officials who push them around are answerable only to higher-ups, public or private. Either way, dissent and disobedience are punished. Informers report regularly to the authorities. All this is supposed to be a very bad thing.
And so it is, although it is nothing but a description of the modern workplace. The liberals and conservatives and libertarians who lament totalitarianism are phonies and hypocrites. There is more freedom in any moderately deStalinized dictatorship than there is in the ordinary American workplace. You find the same sort of hierarchy and discipline in an office or factory as you do in a prison or monastery. In fact, as Foucault and others have shown, prisons and factories came in at about the same time, and their operators consciously borrowed from each other's control techniques. 

A worker is a part time slave. The boss says when to show up, when to leave, and what to do in the meantime. He tells you how much work to do and how fast. He is free to carry his control to humiliating extremes, regulating, if he feels like it, the clothes you wear or how often you go to the bathroom. With a few exceptions he can fire you for any reason, or no reason. He has you spied on by snitches and supervisors, he amasses a dossier on every employee. Talking back is called "insubordination," just as if a worker is a naughty child, and it not only gets you fired, it disqualifies you for unemployment compensation. Without necessarily endorsing it for them either, it is noteworthy that children at home and in school receive much the same treatment, justified in their case by their supposed immaturity. What does this say about their parents and teachers who work?

The demeaning system of domination I've described rules over half the waking hours of a majority of women and the vast majority of men for decades, for most of their lifespans. For certain purposes it's not too misleading to call our system democracy or capitalism or -- better still -- industrialism, but its real names are factory fascism and office oligarchy. Anybody who says these people are "free" is lying or stupid. You are what you do. If you do boring, stupid monotonous work, chances are you'll end up boring, stupid and monotonous. Work is a much better explanation for the creeping cretinization all around us than even such significant moronizing mechanisms as television and education. People who are regimented all their lives, handed off to work from school and bracketed by the family in the beginning and the nursing home at the end, are habituated to heirarchy and psychologically enslaved. Their aptitude for autonomy is so atrophied that their fear of freedom is among their few rationally grounded phobias. Their obedience training at work carries over into the families they start, thus reproducing the system in more ways than one, and into politics, culture and everything else. Once you drain the vitality from people at work, they'll likely submit to heirarchy and expertise in everything. They're used to it.

We are so close to the world of work that we can't see what it does to us. We have to rely on outside observers from other times or other cultures to appreciate the extremity and the pathology of our present position. There was a time in our own past when the "work ethic" would have been incomprehensible, and perhaps Weber was on to something when he tied its appearance to a religion, Calvinism, which if it emerged today instead of four centuries ago would immediately and appropriately be labeled a cult. Be that as it may, we have only to draw upon the wisdom of antiquity to put work in perspective. The ancients saw work for what it is, and their view prevailed, the Calvinist cranks notwithstanding, until overthrown by industrialism -- but not before receiving the endorsement of its prophets.

Let's pretend for a moment that work doesn't turn people into stultified submissives. Let's pretend, in defiance of any plausible psychology and the ideology of its boosters, that it has no effect on the formation of character. And let's pretend that work isn't as boring and tiring and humiliating as we all know it really is. Even then, work would still make a mockery of all humanistic and democratic aspirations, just because it usurps so much of our time. Socrates said that manual laborers make bad friends and bad citizens because they have no time to fulfill the responsibilities of friendship and citizenship. He was right. Because of work, no matter what we do we keep looking at our watches. The only thing "free" about so-called free time is that it doesn't cost the boss anything. Free time is mostly devoted to getting ready for work, going to work, returning from work, and recovering from work. Free time is a euphemism for the peculiar way labor as a factor of production not only transports itself at its own expense to and from the workplace but assumes primary responsibility for its own maintenance and repair. Coal and steel don't do that. Lathes and typewriters don't do that. But workers do. No wonder Edward G. Robinson in one of his gangster movies exclaimed, "Work is for saps!"

Both Plato and Xenophon attribute to Socrates and obviously share with him an awareness of the destructive effects of work on the worker as a citizen and a human being. Herodotus identified contempt for work as an attribute of the classical Greeks at the zenith of their culture. To take only one Roman example, Cicero said that "whoever gives his labor for money sells himself and puts himself in the rank of slaves." His candor is now rare, but contemporary primitive societies which we are wont to look down upon have provided spokesmen who have enlightened Western anthropologists. The Kapauku of West Irian, according to Posposil, have a conception of balance in life and accordingly work only every other day, the day of rest designed "to regain the lost power and health." Our ancestors, even as late as the eighteenth century when they were far along the path to our present predicament, at least were aware of what we have forgotten, the underside of industrialization. Their religious devotion to "St. Monday" -- thus establishing a de facto five-day week 150-200 years before its legal consecration -- was the despair of the earliest factory owners. They took a long time in submitting to the tyranny of the bell, predecessor of the time clock. In fact it was necessary for a generation or two to replace adult males with women accustomed to obedience and children who could be molded to fit industrial needs. Even the exploited peasants of the ancient regime wrested substantial time back from their landlord's work. According to Lafargue, a fourth of the French peasants' calendar was devoted to Sundays and holidays, and Chayanov's figures from villages in Czarist Russia -- hardly a progressive society -- likewise show a fourth or fifth of peasants' days devoted to repose. Controlling for productivity, we are obviously far behind these backward societies. The exploited muzhiks would wonder why any of us are working at all. So should we.

To grasp the full enormity of our deterioration, however, consider the earliest condition of humanity, without government or property, when we wandered as hunter-gatherers. Hobbes surmised that life was then nasty, brutish and short. Others assume that life was a desperate unremitting struggle for subsistence, a war waged against a harsh Nature with death and disaster awaiting the unlucky or anyone who was unequal to the challenge of the struggle for existence. Actually, that was all a projection of fears for the collapse of government authority over communities unaccustomed to doing without it, like the England of Hobbes during the Civil War. Hobbes' compatriots had already encountered alternative forms of society which illustrated other ways of life -- in North America, particularly -- but already these were too remote from their experience to be understandable. (The lower orders, closer to the condition of the Indians, understood it better and often found it attractive. Throughout the seventeenth century, English settlers defected to Indian tribes or, captured in war, refused to return. But the Indians no more defected to white settlements than Germans climb the Berlin Wall from the west.) The "survival of the fittest" version -- the Thomas Huxley version -- of Darwinism was a better account of economic conditions in Victorian England than it was of natural selection, as the anarchist Kropotkin showed in his book Mutual Aid, A Factor of Evolution. (Kropotkin was a scientist -- a geographer -- who'd had ample involuntary opportunity for fieldwork whilst exiled in Siberia: he knew what he was talking about.) Like most social and political theory, the story Hobbes and his successors told was really unacknowledged autobiography.

The anthropologist Marshall Sahlins, surveying the data on contemporary hunter-gatherers, exploded the Hobbesian myth in an article entitled "The Original Affluent Society." They work a lot less than we do, and their work is hard to distinguish from what we regard as play. Sahlins concluded that "hunters and gatherers work less than we do; and rather than a continuous travail, the food quest is intermittent, leisure abundant, and there is a greater amount of sleep in the daytime per capita per year than in any other condition of society." They worked an average of four hours a day, assuming they were "working" at all. Their "labor," as it appears to us, was skilled labor which exercised their physical and intellectual capacities; unskilled labor on any large scale, as Sahlins says, is impossible except under industrialism. Thus it satisfied Friedrich Schiller's definition of play, the only occasion on which man realizes his complete humanity by giving full "play" to both sides of his twofold nature, thinking and feeling. As he put it: "The animal works when deprivation is the mainspring of its activity, and it plays when the fullness of its strength is this mainspring, when superabundant life is its own stimulus to activity." (A modern version -- dubiously developmental -- is Abraham Maslow's counterposition of "deficiency" and "growth" motivation.) Play and freedom are, as regards production, coextensive. Even Marx, who belongs (for all his good intentions) in the productivist pantheon, observed that "the realm of freedom does not commence until the point is passed where labor under the compulsion of necessity and external utility is required." He never could quite bring himself to identify this happy circumstance as what it is, the abolition of work -- it's rather anomalous, after all, to be pro-worker and anti-work -- but we can.

The aspiration to go backwards or forwards to a life without work is evident in every serious social or cultural history of pre-industrial Europe, among them M. Dorothy George's England In Transition and Peter Burke's Popular Culture in Early Modern Europe. Also pertinent is Daniel Bell's essay, "Work and its Discontents," the first text, I believe, to refer to the "revolt against work" in so many words and, had it been understood, an important correction to the complacency ordinarily associated with the volume in which it was collected, The End of Ideology. Neither critics nor celebrants have noticed that Bell's end-of-ideology thesis signaled not the end of social unrest but the beginning of a new, uncharted phase unconstrained and uninformed by ideology. It was Seymour Lipset (in Political Man), not Bell, who announced at the same time that "the fundamental problems of the Industrial Revolution have been solved," only a few years before the post- or meta-industrial discontents of college students drove Lipset from UC Berkeley to the relative (and temporary) tranquility of Harvard.

As Bell notes, Adam Smith in The Wealth of Nations, for all his enthusiasm for the market and the division of labor, was more alert to (and more honest about) the seamy side of work than Ayn Rand or the Chicago economists or any of Smith's modern epigones. As Smith observed: "The understandings of the greater part of men are necessarily formed by their ordinary employments. The man whose life is spent in performing a few simple operations... has no occasion to exert his understanding... He generally becomes as stupid and ignorant as it is possible for a human creature to become." Here, in a few blunt words, is my critique of work. Bell, writing in 1956, the Golden Age of Eisenhower imbecility and American self-satisfaction, identified the unorganized, unorganizable malaise of the 1970's and since, the one no political tendency is able to harness, the one identified in HEW's report Work in America, the one which cannot be exploited and so is ignored. That problem is the revolt against work. It does not figure in any text by any laissez-faire economist -- Milton Friedman, Murray Rothbard, Richard Posner -- because, in their terms, as they used to say on Star Trek, "it does not compute."

If these objections, informed by the love of liberty, fail to persuade humanists of a utilitarian or even paternalist turn, there are others which they cannot disregard. Work is hazardous to your health, to borrow a book title. In fact, work is mass murder or genocide. Directly or indirectly, work will kill most of the people who read these words. Between 14,000 and 25,000 workers are killed annually in this country on the job. Over two million are disabled. Twenty to twenty-five million are injured every year. And these figures are based on a very conservative estimation of what constitutes a work-related injury. Thus they don't count the half million cases of occupational disease every year. I looked at one medical textbook on occupational diseases which was 1,200 pages long. Even this barely scratches the surface. The available statistics count the obvious cases like the 100,000 miners who have black lung disease, of whom 4,000 die every year, a much higher fatality rate than for AIDS, for instance, which gets so much media attention. This reflects the unvoiced assumption that AIDS afflicts perverts who could control their depravity whereas coal-mining is a sacrosanct activity beyond question. What the statistics don't show is that tens of millions of people have heir lifespans shortened by work -- which is all that homicide means, after all. Consider the doctors who work themselves to death in their 50's. Consider all the other workaholics.

Even if you aren't killed or crippled while actually working, you very well might be while going to work, coming from work, looking for work, or trying to forget about work. The vast majority of victims of the automobile are either doing one of these work-obligatory activities or else fall afoul of those who do them. To this augmented body-count must be added the victims of auto-industrial pollution and work-induced alcoholism and drug addiction. Both cancer and heart disease are modern afflictions normally traceable, directly, or indirectly, to work.

Work, then, institutionalizes homicide as a way of life. People think the Cambodians were crazy for exterminating themselves, but are we any different? The Pol Pot regime at least had a vision, however blurred, of an egalitarian society. We kill people in the six-figure range (at least) in order to sell Big Macs and Cadillacs to the survivors. Our forty or fifty thousand annual highway fatalities are victims, not martyrs. They died for nothing -- or rather, they died for work. But work is nothing to die for.

Bad news for liberals: regulatory tinkering is useless in this life-and-death context. The federal Occupational Safety and Health Administration was designed to police the core part of the problem, workplace safety. Even before Reagan and the Supreme Court stifled it, OSHA was a farce. At previous and (by current standards) generous Carter-era funding levels, a workplace could expect a random visit from an OSHA inspector once every 46 years.

State control of the economy is no solution. Work is, if anything, more dangerous in the state-socialist countries than it is here. Thousands of Russian workers were killed or injured building the Moscow subway. Stories reverberate about covered-up Soviet nuclear disasters which make Times Beach and Three-Mile Island look like elementary-school air-raid drills. On the other hand, deregulation, currently fashionable, won't help and will probably hurt. From a health and safety standpoint, among others, work was at its worst in the days when the economy most closely approximated laissez-faire.

Historians like Eugene Genovese have argued persuasively that -- as antebellum slavery apologists insisted -- factory wage-workers in the Northern American states and in Europe were worse off than Southern plantation slaves. No rearrangement of relations among bureaucrats and businessmen seems to make much difference at the point of production. Serious enforcement of even the rather vague standards enforceable in theory by OSHA would probably bring the economy to a standstill. The enforcers apparently appreciate this, since they don't even try to crack down on most malefactors.

What I've said so far ought not to be controversial. Many workers are fed up with work. There are high and rising rates of absenteeism, turnover, employee theft and sabotage, wildcat strikes, and overall goldbricking on the job. There may be some movement toward a conscious and not just visceral rejection of work. And yet the prevalent feeling, universal among bosses and their agents and also widespread among workers themselves is that work itself is inevitable and necessary.
I disagree. It is now possible to abolish work and replace it, insofar as it serves useful purposes, with a multitude of new kinds of free activities. To abolish work requires going at it from two directions, quantitative and qualitative. On the one hand, on the quantitative side, we have to cut down massively on the amount of work being done. At present most work is useless or worse and we should simply get rid of it. On the other hand -- and I think this is the crux of the matter and the revolutionary new departure -- we have to take what useful work remains and transform it into a pleasing variety of game-like and craft-like pastimes, indistinguishable from other pleasurable pastimes, except that they happen to yield useful end-products. Surely that shouldn't make them less enticing to do. Then all the artificial barriers of power and property could come down. Creation could become recreation. And we could all stop being afraid of each other.

I don't suggest that most work is salvageable in this way. But then most work isn't worth trying to save. Only a small and diminishing fraction of work serves any useful purpose independent of the defense and reproduction of the work-system and its political and legal appendages. Twenty years ago, Paul and Percival Goodman estimated that just five percent of the work then being done -- presumably the figure, if accurate, is lower now -- would satisfy our minimal needs for food, clothing, and shelter. Theirs was only an educated guess but the main point is quite clear: directly or indirectly, most work serves the unproductive purposes of commerce or social control. Right off the bat we can liberate tens of millions of salesmen, soldiers, managers, cops, stockbrokers, clergymen, bankers, lawyers, teachers, landlords, security guards, ad-men and everyone who works for them. There is a snowball effect since every time you idle some bigshot you liberate his flunkeys and underlings also. Thus the economy implodes.

Forty percent of the workforce are white-collar workers, most of whom have some of the most tedious and idiotic jobs ever concocted. Entire industries, insurance and banking and real estate for instance, consist of nothing but useless paper-shuffling. It is no accident that the "tertiary sector," the service sector, is growing while the "secondary sector" (industry) stagnates and the "primary sector" (agriculture) nearly disappears. Because work is unnecessary except to those whose power it secures, workers are shifted from relatively useful to relatively useless occupations as a measure to assure public order. Anything is better than nothing. That's why you can't go home just because you finish early. They want your time, enough of it to make you theirs, even if they have no use for most of it. Otherwise why hasn't the average work week gone down by more than a few minutes in the past fifty years?

Next we can take a meat-cleaver to production work itself. No more war production, nuclear power, junk food, feminine hygiene deodorant -- and above all, no more auto industry to speak of. An occasional Stanley Steamer or Model-T might be all right, but the auto-eroticism on which such pestholes as Detroit and Los Angeles depend on is out of the question. Already, without even trying, we've virtually solved the energy crisis, the environmental crisis and assorted other insoluble social problems.

Finally, we must do away with far and away the largest occupation, the one with the longest hours, the lowest pay and some of the most tedious tasks around. I refer to housewives doing housework and child-rearing. By abolishing wage-labor and achieving full unemployment we undermine the sexual division of labor. The nuclear family as we know it is an inevitable adaptation to the division of labor imposed by modern wage-work. Like it or not, as things have been for the last century or two it is economically rational for the man to bring home the bacon, for the woman to do the shitwork to provide him with a haven in a heartless world, and for the children to be marched off to youth concentration camps called "schools," primarily to keep them out of Mom's hair but still under control, but incidentally to acquire the habits of obedience and punctuality so necessary for workers. 

If you would be rid of patriarchy, get rid of the nuclear family whose unpaid "shadow work," as Ivan Illich says, makes possible the work-system that makes it necessary. Bound up with this no-nukes strategy is the abolition of childhood and the closing of the schools. There are more full-time students than full-time workers in this country. We need children as teachers, not students. They have a lot to contribute to the ludic revolution because they're better at playing than grown-ups are. Adults and children are not identical but they will become equal through interdependence. Only play can bridge the generation gap.

I haven't as yet even mentioned the possibility of cutting way down on the little work that remains by automating and cybernizing it. All the scientists and engineers and technicians freed from bothering with war research and planned obsolescence would have a good time devising means to eliminate fatigue and tedium and danger from activities like mining. Undoubtedly they'll find other projects to amuse themselves with. Perhaps they'll set up world-wide all-inclusive multi-media communications systems or found space colonies. Perhaps. I myself am no gadget freak. I wouldn't care to live in a pushbutton paradise. I don't want robot slaves to do everything; I want to do things myself. There is, I think, a place for labor-saving technology, but a modest place. The historical and pre-historical record is not encouraging. When productive technology went from hunting-gathering to agriculture and on to industry, work increased while skills and self-determination diminished. The further evolution of industrialism has accentuated what Harry Braverman called the degradation of work. Intelligent observers have always been aware of this. John Stuart Mill wrote that all the labor-saving inventions ever devised haven't saved a moment's labor. Karl Marx wrote that "it would be possible to write a history of the inventions, made since 1830, for the sole purpose of supplying capital with weapons against the revolts of the working class." The enthusiastic technophiles -- Saint-Simon, Comte, Lenin, B. F. Skinner -- have always been unabashed authoritarians also; which is to say, technocrats. We should be more than sceptical about the promises of the computer mystics. They work like dogs; chances are, if they have their way, so will the rest of us. But if they have any particularized contributions more readily subordinated to human purposes than the run of high tech, let's give them a hearing.

What I really want to see is work turned into play. A first step is to discard the notions of a "job" and an "occupation." Even activities that already have some ludic content lose most of it by being reduced to jobs which certain people, and only those people are forced to do to the exclusion of all else. Is it not odd that farm workers toil painfully in the fields while their air-conditioned masters go home every weekend and putter about in their gardens? Under a system of permanent revelry, we will witness the Golden Age of the dilettante which will put the Renaissance to shame. There won't be any more jobs, just things to do and people to do them.

The secret of turning work into play, as Charles Fourier demonstrated, is to arrange useful activities to take advantage of whatever it is that various people at various times in fact enjoy doing. To make it possible for some people to do the things they could enjoy it will be enough just to eradicate the irrationalities and distortions which afflict these activities when they are reduced to work. I, for instance, would enjoy doing some (not too much) teaching, but I don't want coerced students and I don't care to suck up to pathetic pedants for tenure.

Second, there are some things that people like to do from time to time, but not for too long, and certainly not all the time. You might enjoy baby-sitting for a few hours in order to share the company of kids, but not as much as their parents do. The parents meanwhile, profoundly appreciate the time to themselves that you free up for them, although they'd get fretful if parted from their progeny for too long. These differences among individuals are what make a life of free play possible. The same principle applies to many other areas of activity, especially the primal ones. Thus many people enjoy cooking when they can practice it seriously at their leisure, but not when they're just fueling up human bodies for work.

Third -- other things being equal -- some things that are unsatisfying if done by yourself or in unpleasant surroundings or at the orders of an overlord are enjoyable, at least for a while, if these circumstances are changed. This is probably true, to some extent, of all work. People deploy their otherwise wasted ingenuity to make a game of the least inviting drudge-jobs as best they can. 

Activities that appeal to some people don't always appeal to all others, but everyone at least potentially has a variety of interests and an interest in variety. As the saying goes, "anything once." Fourier was the master at speculating how aberrant and perverse penchants could be put to use in post-civilized society, what he called Harmony. He thought the Emperor Nero would have turned out all right if as a child he could have indulged his taste for bloodshed by working in a slaughterhouse. Small children who notoriously relish wallowing in filth could be organized in "Little Hordes" to clean toilets and empty the garbage, with medals awarded to the outstanding. I am not arguing for these precise examples but for the underlying principle, which I think makes perfect sense as one dimension of an overall revolutionary transformation. Bear in mind that we don't have to take today's work just as we find it and match it up with the proper people, some of whom would have to be perverse indeed. If technology has a role in all this it is less to automate work out of existence than to open up new realms for re/creation. To some extent we may want to return to handicrafts, which William Morris considered a probable and desirable upshot of communist revolution. Art would be taken back from the snobs and collectors, abolished as a specialized department catering to an elite audience, and its qualities of beauty and creation restored to integral life from which they were stolen by work. It's a sobering thought that the grecian urns we write odes about and showcase in museums were used in their own time to store olive oil. I doubt our everyday artifacts will fare as well in the future, if there is one. The point is that there's no such thing as progress in the world of work; if anything it's just the opposite. We shouldn't hesitate to pilfer the past for what it has to offer, the ancients lose nothing yet we are enriched.

The reinvention of daily life means marching off the edge of our maps. There is, it is true, more suggestive speculation than most people suspect. Besides Fourier and Morris -- and even a hint, here and there, in Marx -- there are the writings of Kropotkin, the syndicalists Pataud and Pouget, anarcho-communists old (Berkman) and new (Bookchin). The Goodman brothers' Communitas is exemplary for illustrating what forms follow from given functions (purposes), and there is something to be gleaned from the often hazy heralds of alternative/appropriate/intermediate/convivial technology, like Schumacher and especially Illich, once you disconnect their fog machines. The situationists -- as represented by Vaneigem's Revolution of Daily Life and in the Situationist International Anthology -- are so ruthlessly lucid as to be exhilarating, even if they never did quite square the endorsement of the rule of the worker's councils with the abolition of work. Better their incongruity, though than any extant version of leftism, whose devotees look to be the last champions of work, for if there were no work there would be no workers, and without workers, who would the left have to organize?

So the abolitionists would be largely on their own. No one can say what would result from unleashing the creative power stultified by work. Anything can happen. The tiresome debater's problem of freedom vs. necessity, with its theological overtones, resolves itself practically once the production of use-values is coextensive with the consumption of delightful play-activity.

Life will become a game, or rather many games, but not -- as it is now - -- a zero/sum game. An optimal sexual encounter is the paradigm of productive play, The participants potentiate each other's pleasures, nobody keeps score, and everybody wins. The more you give, the more you get. In the ludic life, the best of sex will diffuse into the better part of daily life. Generalized play leads to the libidinization of life. Sex, in turn, can become less urgent and desperate, more playful. If we play our cards right, we can all get more out of life than we put into it; but only if we play for keeps.

No one should ever work. Workers of the world... relax!